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8/2/2026

So, we're back. I wiped this website out of impulse and also out of concern of some specific details possibly being able to identify me. It's been a month or so, so I'll provide a brief rundown of what's happened since then.

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In a huge industrial phase right now. Almost anything that's loud or crunchy. I really wish I had money so I could drop it on clothes. I even want to get my ears pierced and I've never gotten anything on me pierced. But it's better that I keep those urges at bay. I've been listening to a lot of Chemlab, but honestly, it's one of their songs on repeat. Either way, the music keeps me alive and driven. You'll still find some of the music pages on here!

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Trying to plan on leaving my ******* household. Unfortunately the circumstances of my situation make this much more trickier, but I anticipate to leave in 2027 because I do think I'm beginning to develop a good case. I just wish it didn't take an evil man from abroad to indirectly make me realize how bad it is, but it's better late than never, I guess.

I still plan on traveling, but not to see him. In some ways, I still miss him, but I don't like him anymore. He doesn't deserve access to me.

I really need an overdue vacation and to reset my nervous system. I know I can travel domestically, but I feel tempted to exercise my freedom in the "biggest" way I've wanted, for a long time. Wishful thinking, possibly, but I still desire to travel abroad. I feel delusional for it given the existing barriers I have—at the same time, I don't care.

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I still hate time. Everything feels so unreal even more, now.

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I predict a hyperfixation coming back. What that will be, I don't know. Either a language or a true crime case.

This is what's been going on in my life. I wish things were more grand and upbeat, but unfortunately that likely won't be possible for a bit. I'm trying to find the good and productive things to focus on to balance the troubling aspects out. Regardless, I'm looking forward to being a little more active in this little corner of the internet!