Well, it's my birthday now. The big 25. It feels weird, but also not much of a difference at the same time because I haven't looked forward to my birthdays for over a decade now.
I've had a lot of crying spells up to now, including doing some regrettable things onto myself. Everything in my life feels like it piles up. But well, today I've been chilling out and trying to make the best of it, even if it's not what I wanted to do. Watched a movie at noon to try and comfort myself; funnily enough, it's a horror movie. I've been super nostalgic lately for specific years and I'm not entirely sure why, other than I really wish I could rewrite and play with time how I'd like.
I am very afraid of the near future. But what I know is that I have to make what I want to happen, happen. I'm too ambitious and full of life to stay stagnant in one place forever. My life needs to finally be set in motion.
